@ Phantom: I don't know about your system, but in Germany we have still universities you can easily get in. Mostly you would need A-levels with certain grades, but in some subjects and at some universities with lower demand you can still get in because they accept just the A-Levels no matter the grades as entry qualification. The same might be true for some evening courses or distance learning. Sometimes you can skip the entry grades if you have already some qualification and maybe can enter second year where entry isn't restricted.
Also, you could try to get in with help from professionals, if you can show good reasons. University looks like it's got a very strict entry system, but from experience I can say that there is room for negotiation. Of course it means collecting papers, speaking to the right people, and also a bit of luck, but it can work. It might take effort though, and you might need a long breath and strong nerves, because many people don't understand how illness affects our possibilities. But some do, and that's the ones you have to turn to :-) This is just my experience and I can't say if it would work in your country. But don't let any apparent impossibilities let you bury your dream - that's the most imporant thing. If you want it, you'll find a way :-)

also, about travelling alone... I used to do it a few times, and people told me all the time how "brave" I was. I think what they really wanted to say was: wow, you're doing something I don't dare to do. Because they haven't done it, they imagined it to be really scary. But it wasn't, and I simply loved it! I found it even easier because people were always very willing to help me out (seeing me being on my own), I've had more friendly encounters than when travelling in a group, and the feeling of just doing what I wanted whenever I wanted was a big plus! Please don't worry and try to enjoy it :-) :-) what I found helpful though was having a to-do-list to structure my free time and to prevent boredom. Although in London, to experience boredom is a challenge :-)
 

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Hope very much that you'll feel better soon, dear. Do you have painkillers that are strong enough? And I hope for your sake that you haven't already rushed to work again?

*sigh*  I did go to work Friday and I regreted it.  However there is something huge going on at work and I really need to be there.  :-(   I am hoping the weekend will help.  I do have some pain meds.  They don't make it go away completely but they do help.

And I mean it when  I say black and blue...............and purple and red and yellow.  You should see the colors my body has produced!

The drugs help me sleep, but I can only sleep for short periods at a time because I get uncomfortable in one position and have to adjust.

Add to all this the pain in the arse of having to find another car that we can afford and having to go after the other driver for my medical bills..........................It's most unpleasant.

AO3 is down! 

Yeah, it came up a few minutes after I posted, but it was down for a little while tonight.

AO3 was down this morning, Server errors or something... it's always a mini heart attack when that happens as I want to check the status of my fic. 

Lily, I really hope you feel better soon! ugh. *Sends you hugs*



I'm a little angry with my back and my hips... my pains had been okay for a while now since I got stronger pain meds and took care to not overwork it... 
I've been hurting since last weekend, I insisted on helping my mum carrying bags of dirt... Grr. It was slowly getting to be okay and last night I just couldn't stand looking at my broken drawer (it's been broken for almost a year now) and well, I ended up spending last night on the floor in all sorts of weird positions. No wonder I've been a cripple today. 

I really, really hope I can get it back unde control before leaving for London on Monday night.
 

@ Lilythiell: Hope you're getting well, soon! Maybe kind of a summer depression (which definately exists!)

@ Whisky: Oh, why? Did some people go over the top?

Let's hope a few days' rest (absolute rest, I mean, not helping people to carry things, or walking around, doing shopping or whatever. Have someone do so of it for you, it'll be plenty enough) will help so you're fit enough to go to London and see HIM!

Thank you all for your support. It's hard to get (and stay) up. Still hoping I can sleep my life (summer) away.
At least I'm doing things -sampling tea and writing reviews on the forum, since apparently, I can't be a*sed to write on that stupid fanfiction. Or do anything in the house.
 

Bleeding hell I don't know what's worse -being on an extremely low...low or being on a high for no reason at all...
Emotions. Can't I keep them in check? Christ!

I'm aware that'll pass, it always does (until it doesn't...no, best not to think like that) but...ugh. Possibly I need to get back to talking and working on things with someone...