besleybean wrote:

I know and witnessed ' the death' etc...but hell, he had seen one fake death, yes I know he didn't want to fool himself...
But to repeatedly hit Sherlock?
I'd have told him to get lost and walked away.

Yea, and Molly slapped him three times for getting high.  Something I see as a much lesser transgression.

besleybean wrote:

John more or less implies he's killed people.
Though whether or not that was in combat or by bad doctoring, I don't know.
I'm sure it wasn't the latter!

Not likely to have been by bad doctoring, so he probably killed Afghani insurgents to save lives.  If, as I surmise, he was a trainee trauma surgeon (who, according to Wellingtongoose, would have been sent into battles to retrieve wounded soldiers, and would have had to be prepared to kill in order to save his patients' lives and his own), then he used his gun on insurgents who were shooting at them while he was trying to prepare injured soldiers for retrieval to a base hospital.  (With that said, a number of the other fans surmise otherwise, I know.  Unless the series decides to reveal more of John's past, we will never know for sure.)

 

Schmiezi wrote:

As for clueless Sherlock (to come back to the topic) it could be a matter of low self-esteem. He voiced at the wedding that he never thought to be anybody's close friend. I doubt he realized he was important enough to leave him devastated. :-(

Exactly.

John has also flat out said, "I've killed people."  In ASiB.

besleybean wrote:

Oh I think he knew exactly what he was doing to John, I don't believe it was all fake tears on the roof.
But he saw no alternative...
As for his return: he maybe really did feel he could just waltz back into John's life.
I mean really: why didn't John react like Greg?

I also agree that I don't think the tears were all fake. I can't accept that. I also, however, strongly believe that Sherlock's ignorance toward's John's reaction is caused by his low self-esteem (for lack of better word.) Sherlock doesn't comprehend how much he means to John, because he never expected to mean anything to anyone.

So then why the tears? My theory is Sherlock wasn't crying (as much) for John as he was for himself. Sherlock knew he was going to hurt John, yes. But he also knew he was going to have to leave him for an indefinite amount of time. Could those tears be tears of loss? I think it's a possibility. 

Oh I know he said that...I like to think he meant just in terms of him not really being driven to suicide...
Then they say all sorts I don't agree with, but I just have to accept it.

Last edited by besleybean (October 14, 2016 8:50 pm)

I think it's a bit of both.  Yes, he was "faking" in the sense that he wasn't actually suicidal, but needed to appear as if he was.  But I think he was also emotional.  It was a hugely emotional moment.  And I agree, that the emotion would be more about his own loss than John's.