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besleybean · May 26, 2016 5:43 am

I have an unfortunate superpower: every look that's cast between people behind my back...I see.
Every jibe about me whispered between people...I hear.
I have even announced this fact at work, yet colleagues persist!
Not that this has anything to do with my current situation, because this isn't why(as it hasn't really been happening lately)...and it's not even only work.
But I'm just feeling a bit p----d off at the moment.
I just want to be left alone.
Oh well, the scales were kind this morning and not too long until the end of term.
Trying to send everyone else positive vibes!

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This Is The Phantom Lady · May 26, 2016 9:26 am

Sorry people are wasting time talking behind your back, Besley!

I actually ended up reacting to that argument... I didn't comment on the video though... but I made a post on facebook myself (I also have her boyfriend on my friends list)... about the 'joys' of being a woman today, telling about all the sexist men and situations I have dealt with, that a lot of other women do to, simply because they tried going outside and happens to have a female body.

besleybean · May 26, 2016 3:46 pm

Well done, you.
Oh and obviously the Sherlock gods were smiling on me...I have had so much better a time today and even received some good news.

This Is The Phantom Lady · May 29, 2016 3:24 pm

I wish Facebook came with filters...

One of my least favourite weeks have started... It's Father's day next weekend...
It's annoying enough that every commercial break is filled with adverts saying "Don't forget your father on fathers day" and the stores having entire sections and special sales and all.

I sound like an awful person I know... but it actually does hurt to see all those 'dad appreciation' posts. I don't want people to stop making them... I just don't want to see them.

The thing is, I never had a father... or even a father figure. The man who served up half of my genetic material is a selfish idiot who after having cheated on his wife for a year with my mum walked out of her life the moment she fell pregnant... pretending it never happened... well, he visited my mum at the hospital the day after I was born, still fighting for my life, and refused to even look my way. For 26 years he hasn't even tried to reach out to me.

So, no, I am not forgetting my dad for Fathers day... he forgot me.

I guess an easy solution would be to disable Facebook until it's over... but it's pretty much my lifeline to connect with my friends.

I did survive the mothers day thing, twice... I do have my mum, but it's not a day worth celebrating either... (sorry, I know this is insensitive to people who lost great mothers... but mine doesn't fit that category)

Yitzock · May 29, 2016 8:35 pm

I don't think it's insensitive of you to say. There are lots of other people who would rather ignore Mother's Day or Father's Day (or maybe both) because of parents who weren't there to them or who were not good to them.
I know there are browser extensions for Tumblr that let you blog certain words, but I don't know whether there are any like that for Facebook, though I suppose you could look. I can understand it could be annoying to see that stuff if it bothers you.

Whisky · June 1, 2016 1:14 am

Got into a thunderstorm yesterday, on my bike. I had my Sherlock Cluedo game with me. Which, like me, got soaked. I'm sad . I had it in a plastic bag even! But the rain was so bad I had no chance to get somewhere dry in time. Poor Cluedo.

besleybean · June 1, 2016 5:38 am

Just like Sherlock...it will dry out!

This Is The Phantom Lady · June 1, 2016 6:23 am

I hope the game survives Whiskey!

This Is The Phantom Lady · June 16, 2016 6:25 am

... Today I have yet another meeting with my newest, bad caseworker.

She is so unorganised! One of the times I saw her i had to teach her how simple things on her computer worked... she made inappropriate jokes of some things I told her... and she hasn't learned the language properly. It's so difficult to communicate about stuff.

Gah. I really don't want to go there.

At least this time she was smart to send me the questionnaire we are supposed to go through today... and offered I could answer it beforehand.

I almost miss that caseworker I had a while ago (and filed a complaint about) who advised me to lose weight by starvation and smoking.

besleybean · June 16, 2016 6:28 am

Hope all goes well, dear.
My personal whinge is that I've only got myself collared into driving my boss and her family to a work's night out on Saturday.
I know this means that I'll end up staying later than I want...sigh.

This Is The Phantom Lady · June 19, 2016 4:07 am

I am still a bit mad about yesterday.

I went to the cinema with my best friend and another friend to watch The Conjuring 2, a film i had really looked forward to because I loved the first and when I was a teenager I studied the case this film was about...

But we didn't really get to enjoy it... A group of young girls in the front were taking selfies, laughing at inappropriate times, talking loudly and threw stuff, twice a man had to shout at them to stop and my best friend lost her temper and yelled "shut the @/^##^ up".

After I couldn't help but discuss this loudly with my friends... hoping the teenagers heard. I mean what is even the fun in that?? And considering the ticket price!! Also after the man who had tried to stop them before gave them a good telling off.

Somehow, sadly, I doubt they learned their lesson

Davina · June 19, 2016 9:15 am

What a bunch of ignorant and selfish girls. I think someone going out and complaining to someone from the cinema would have been the way to go but this would have meant missing a chunk of the film. It is based in the Enfield haunting isn't it. There was a mini-series on recently on Sky called The Enfield Haunting. The cast included Timothy Spall, Juliet Stevenson, Matthew Macfadyn etc. Certainly worth watching if you can find it.

besleybean · June 19, 2016 9:52 am

Does sound good and Phantom I do hope you get to enjoy the film properly some time.

This Is The Phantom Lady · June 19, 2016 11:18 am

Thank you! I'll look out for that mini series! It sounds good to me!

Yitzock · June 19, 2016 2:15 pm

That's awful! I hate it when people are noisy in the cinema and looking at their phones, but I've never had an experience as bad as the one you described. Same sentiment frome me: I hope you get to properly watch the film one of these days.

This Is The Phantom Lady · July 1, 2016 2:29 am

I am losing what's left of my sanity.

The neighbour upstairs has been stomping and jumping around all night and playing music... its now 4.30 in the morning and my alarm is set for 7.45... I've got a physio appointment in the morning.

GAH

This Is The Phantom Lady · July 1, 2016 3:15 pm

So... today sucks... more than how it started... I have somehow managed to survive on 2 hours sleep, a double shot coffee and an espresso frappe... I'm even slightly hyper.

But well...

Physio hurt... and I feel stupid (not the physio lady's fault) but I can't do so many things and my balance is horrible...

And my long distance boyfriend has gone 'missing'... I'm actually proper worried. Last week we had some arguments and he hurt my feelings... that we resolved... yesterday he had a really bad day mentally... long story but he really had a low. We worked that out too... and he felt to be in a good mood at the end of the day...
And today he's not online and I can't reach him any way.... and if I even see him again it won't be before Monday.

I am hoping he's been in meetings all day or the wifi has been out... or maybe he took a day off work (though that's not like him... he's dragged himself sick to work so many times, just to at least say goodmorning to me until I made him get home in bed...)...

I hate that he still hasn't replaced his laptop... it makes things so much more complicated

Yitzock · July 1, 2016 3:55 pm

Yikes. I hope, for both of you, that he is OK and that it is one of the reasons you suggested, or something else that is not so bad.

mrshouse · July 1, 2016 5:41 pm

Take care, Phantom, get some rest, worries get worse with the tiredness.

This Is The Phantom Lady · July 1, 2016 9:53 pm

Thanks girls. I'm going to attempt to sleep soon... my friend ended up inviting me out for dinner and we ended up in a bar... Not having had much sleep at all it only took a pint of Guinness and an Irish Rose to get me drunk... so maybe I'll manage to get some proper sleep.

I just wish he could borrow a laptop or something and send me one little email...

I'm just hoping it's nothing.