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This Is The Phantom Lady · July 16, 2015 5:36 pm

Yikes! That sounds scary! I hope you feel better soon!

mrshouse · July 16, 2015 6:27 pm

@Phantom, seriously! The doctors are paid for this! I have a long career of doing night shifts and examining little spots or kids after vomiting two times at four in the morning ( ) but what you describe does not sound like waiting till monday!
@Val, get well soon, maybe you need to properly hydrate?

nakahara · July 16, 2015 7:02 pm

Having my fingers crossed for you, Val and Phantom. Get well soon.

Yitzock · July 17, 2015 12:57 am

Hopefully it's nothing too serious, Val, though that sounds like it would be startling. Good luck!

Lilythiell · July 17, 2015 3:48 am

Hope you're feeling better, Phantom, Val?
Stay hydrated, rest well and take care of yourself.

This Is The Phantom Lady · July 17, 2015 1:14 pm

Luckily I feel a tad better today! I did my usual 'trick' for when I have colds... sticking my head over a bowl with herbal tea and breathe in the fumes with a cloth over my head.

Now that my London trip to see Hamlet is moving closer I am starting to have so many 'doubts'.
Firstly there was threatened demonstrations against the airline I had chosen ('luckily' for me that has been averted)...
This is the first time I'm traveling on my own. Last year I won tickets to a mini cruise and was in charge of that trip, taking my best friend with me... but still.

I just keep having worries... what if something is wrong with my hostel booking? What if.... WHAT IF THE SKY FALLS ON MY HEAD?

I especially worry that something will happen so I can't get to the Barbican. I was supposed to see all my other huge idols too but something always happened.
Bill Kaulitz of Tokio Hotel lost his voice, Michael Jackson died... etc...

When I saw that therapist some weeks ago who was going to send me on in the system I mentioned that I was traveling to London alone and she said "Wow, really? that's brave"...

I keep doing stuff to keep myself sane... I have been buying travel stuff for months now, like tiny bottles of soap or disinfectant because that seems to calm my nerves. Actually my toilet bag has been packed for a month and I'm not leaving before the 4th!

kornmuhme · July 17, 2015 1:34 pm

This Is The Phantom Lady wrote:
Luckily I feel a tad better today! I did my usual 'trick' for when I have colds... sticking my head over a bowl with herbal tea and breathe in the fumes with a cloth over my head.

Now that my London trip to see Hamlet is moving closer I am starting to have so many 'doubts'.
Firstly there was threatened demonstrations against the airline I had chosen ('luckily' for me that has been averted)...
This is the first time I'm traveling on my own. Last year I won tickets to a mini cruise and was in charge of that trip, taking my best friend with me... but still.

I just keep having worries... what if something is wrong with my hostel booking? What if.... WHAT IF THE SKY FALLS ON MY HEAD?

I especially worry that something will happen so I can't get to the Barbican. I was supposed to see all my other huge idols too but something always happened.
Bill Kaulitz of Tokio Hotel lost his voice, Michael Jackson died... etc...

When I saw that therapist some weeks ago who was going to send me on in the system I mentioned that I was traveling to London alone and she said "Wow, really? that's brave"...

I keep doing stuff to keep myself sane... I have been buying travel stuff for months now, like tiny bottles of soap or disinfectant because that seems to calm my nerves. Actually my toilet bag has been packed for a month and I'm not leaving before the 4th!

EVERYTHING WILL GO FINE!!! Believe in you and your strength. And be proud of yourself that you're going to make this trip alone of your own. That is really brave, esp. when you're a person doubting so much (I know that ...).

Lilythiell · July 17, 2015 1:43 pm

Try not to worry about people who say you're brave to go. I'm pretty sure that what they mean is Wow. You're going on your own, I could never do that. I admire you. How brave you must be.
It's not because there's bound to be anything wrong going on, but because you are able to do something they're not
Glad you're starting to feel better, tricks like that (grandma tricks?) tend to work well, but do be careful about the tea leaves you're using. Every plant does not have the same properties. However, even if you're feeling better, it would seem right if you were to go see a doctor (not the one in the blue box ) just to check everything's alright.

Yitzock · July 17, 2015 2:36 pm

I agree with Lily, that is probably what she meant. Not everyone is willing to go on trips by themselves, but it's not necessarily because it's dangerous. I don't think it will be, but I can understand why you might have that worry since there is always a possibility (even if it's slim) that something will go wrong. I'm sure everything will be fine, though. And even if you're worried about it now, once you arrive and start doing the things you planned, you will be glad you did it.

Davina · July 17, 2015 8:45 pm

Maybe call or email the hostel again just to reconfirm the booking, if that will put your mind at rest. I guess you have worked out how to get to the Barbican from the hostel but maybe have a back-up plan. So if you are going by tube (underground) then also find out the bus route/s as well, that sort of thing. Just having an alternative, even if you don't need to use it, really helps. I'm not sure how long you are actually staying in London but if you have time (and funds) do a 'dry run' to the Barbican a day or two before.

Ah-chie · July 17, 2015 11:38 pm

Well, Dan took me to emerg this morning and to make s long story short they diagnosed me with a severe sinus infection. I was put on an IV for a bit and it helped and then sent home with a extra strong antibiotic, steroid nasal spray, and an anti-inflamatory drug - all of which I have to take for the next ten days and hopefully that will clear up the dizziness and headaches I have been experiencing.

Unfortunate side effects - nausea, vomiting, and diarrhea. But it is better than falling down, so I will take it.

Due to my condition I can't walk too far so Dan and I have been watching Colin Firth movies all afternoon.

Saw a "sword and sandal" one where he was a Roman Legionnaire. Silly but the scenery was lovely. CF didn't do a bad job but it was a real waste of his talents.

-Val

Lilythiell · July 18, 2015 12:52 am

Get well soon, Val!

This Is The Phantom Lady · July 18, 2015 5:17 am

Ugh, that doesn't sound fun at all Val! Take good care of yourself and I hope you recover very soon!

I thought I was better... but I just woke up with such a bad jaw pain, from right under my ear.
At first I feared it could be my teeth after all the dentist visits but it's the jaw that hurts.

I'll try to sleep through it and take my pain relief as I always do I suppose... I guess it could be that I overstretched it by coughing or something. I don't feel that sick anymore so I don't think it can be a sinus infection in my case.

It feels like the universe doesn't want me to go to my friends party tonight!

And thank you for all the advice, I will try to take it easy and 'take things as they come'... and try not to expect too much. But I always have fears like that my thoughts spiral to all possible and impossible things that could go wrong.

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Lilythiell · July 18, 2015 5:59 am

and don't forget to take an appointment to the doctor's!

(by the way, how long are you staying in London again?)

This Is The Phantom Lady · July 18, 2015 6:13 am

I guess I'll have to make an appointment... but they're closed for the weekend.

I'll arrive in London early in the morning on the 4th (unless the airline changes my flight times again), and leaving late in the afternoon on the 7th... I'm seeing Hamlet on the 6th. It isn't that much, but it's what I could afford before I was so lucky to get two unexpected sums of money.

I got a refund on having paid too much on my heating bill and vacation pay from my former job.

and doin the 'dry run' is a great idea. I got myself a 7 day ticket for the underground and busses, so I can travel as much as I like... and I was thinking of seeing the Museum of London, which is next to the Barbican.

Lilythiell · July 18, 2015 6:33 am

Ah. Closed for the weekend. Ludicrous how people have to be in need of medical attention during "working hours"...isn't there an A&E of some sort?

Yes, I remembered you were seeing Hamlet on the 6th -not a long stay, but you'll manage to start taking in the sights
And those unexpected sums of money? Neat. Even if it is logical they should refund you, and that you'd have vacation pay, it is always a good thing when it comes around.
I've not been to the Museum of London yet (and, quite frankly, I'm having a little sulk here, what with not having been able to see the Sherlock Exhibition earlier this year. I know I have to snap out of it, though.)

mrshouse · July 18, 2015 3:20 pm

@Phantom, is it a swollen lymph node, by chance?
Lily is right, check into the emergency room, if needed.
You must be fit for meeting HIM.... And come here, if you are worried about traveling details, we will sort out plenty of ideas to sort it out.
@Val, that doesn't sound too good, but at least you have a " proper" diagnosis that can explain the symptoms and be treated accordingly. Get well soon.

This Is The Phantom Lady · July 18, 2015 10:41 pm

I ended up going to my best friends bonfire party (wrapped up in a coat and blue scarf making sure I didn't get too cold and didn't touch a drop of alcohol)...

I regret going. Physically I actually feel okay and I think it was good to get out...

But the crowd at those parties have changed. It used to be intelectual fun types, artists, geeks, nerds, larpers, that type of people.

This time there was a group of teenagers there, getting so drunk and weird.
My friend is connected to the same institution as them, for mental issues and illnesses.

At 11 pm I decided to leave the party and took the most drunk and vulnerable of the girls with me towards the train station, wanting to make sure she got home okay.
Turns out she was below 15 even, and she had deep psychological issues. (she gave me her entire messed up life story).
I even followed her to get a bite to eat before her train, hoping it could clear her head a bit more.

She reminded me way too much of myself when I was her age. Only... I wasn't getting help like she was.

And I don't know... but I feel really weird. I have all sorts of thoughts that shouldn't be in my head.

I'm close to doing things I will regret. Ugh.

This Is The Phantom Lady · July 20, 2015 11:41 am

I finally called the doctors office, last night just standing up I couldn't breathe properly and got a bit scared. I tried to forget about it this morning and again just hoping it will go away...

But I just called the doctors office and explained my symptoms, I hoped to get an appointment in a few days to get some antibiotics or something, but the receptionist sounded very concerned and got me an emergency appointment within the hour.

That's just a tad scary.

This Is The Phantom Lady · July 23, 2015 9:48 pm

I just need to moan a bit (again...)

I had a meeting at the job center today with a really nice man (he was quite impressed I showed up despite fever and bronchitis) but he wanted to know my plans for the future... he knows I want to become a 'real' medical secretary (as opposed to the education I have already as a healthcare service secretary) and we're both trying to find a way to make that happen... he also asked me what plan B was... and I said I had to stick to secretary work because of my spine and hips.

Don't get me wrong, there's nothing wrong with being a secretary, I really enjoy it, and I'm good at it!

But the problem is... I have a pretty bright brain, and I've always wanted to study linguistics. Ever since I was a little girl words, especially English words and their evolution have interested me, how it's spelled different in other dialects or continents... and how different ways to speak a word can have a massive effect.

But because High school/college was hell for me with all my issues I ended up with a very low grade average.
I was suffering a lot with my PTSD, I suffered from stress and it was pretty much a 3 year long mental break down for me. I wasn't sleeping, I was barely clinging to life...

And now, I can't get into any university because my grades are too low. Some years back I called a university to ask if I could get in any other way, and was pretty much laughed at when I mentioned my grade average.

My other degrees (secretary and fast track business) I finished with top marks.

I HATE this damn system having to rate people on grades they got when they were 18.