I guess in such situations it's very hard if not impossible to do the right thing ...

Titania!!! *hugs tightly* Hope you feel better soon

My pain relief has finally started to help a bit...

My back got really, really bad some hours ago... I couldn't get comfortable no matter what I did... I tried to stand but I couldn't. I ended up calling my mum and when she finally picked up I was crying. 

I think I really scared her. I just wanted to know if I could take more pain relief or what else to do... 

I've topped up my usual 'strong' pain relief I take before bed with regular paracetamol and put ice on my lower back and I'm now resting in a featus position (I really shoulnd't be on the computer... but I'm going out of my mind!)

Mum told me to call her if it keeps on being bad or gets worse... I just really don't want to be a bother. Grrr. 
I kept telling her 'sorry, sorry!' that I called her. gah.


I have such a high threshold for pain... so it always freaks me out when I experience really bad pain

since january last year I've had severe back pains from my lower back. I was born with Scoliosis that was never treated...

I've been on pain relief since March when I finally cracked and saw my doctor about the pain... I had spent months in bed in so much pain because I didn't want pain relief...

I suggested a slipped disk to my doctor but he didn't even want to examine that... 

I can't walk on stairs without pain, my hips lock and some mornings I wake up with paralyzed legs... luckily the feeling comes back.

I've started going to physio pilates and it's making it worse... I had a session today and something went horribly wrong during. the therapist examined me and found that one of my disks are slipping.

I actually had an appointment with my doctor Monday but I cancelled because I didn't want to waste my time in his office... he doesn't want to take this seriously at all

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Seriously… you should ask your teacher to write/call your doctor, if that would carry any weight!  Or another guy?

Big hugs, Titania! I hope you have family and friends around to be with you and help!

Phantom, this sounds truly awful. You're in pain at least since I came to this forum. I wouldn't know about the Danish health system but isn't it possible to get an appointment at another GP? Who might take you seriously and be interested in the results of a magnetic resonance imaging for example? Or maybe sending you to hospital for orthopedic treatment and they decide how to go on?

I'm not really ranting but I feel very biased these days: I finally decided to quit my job in the hospital in summer. The working situation won't get better in the foreseeable future, which means we won't be doing less shifts. I'm sick and tired of working so many weekends and afternoons and nights. I have some working days off, but this is not the best situation with the family. Well, you get your household done, but that's about it. So now I have to find another job from summer on and I'm a bit nervous about that. And in autumn there will be my final exam for becoming a specialized pediatric. So I'm nervous about that as well.

This Is The Phantom Lady wrote:

I've called the doctors office this morning, during the hour where the doctors themselves answer... The one I talked to seemed very concerned and said 'this is no laughing matter' and gave me an emergency appointment with another doctor today.

It's with a very nervous doctor who scared the sh't out of me when she gave me a vaccine... she has very shaky hands and no confidence. 

but perhaps her nervousness is a good thing this time... 

I really hope so.. hopefully she´ll transfer you to a specialist. It´s time someone took your symptoms seriously!

@mrshouse: I keep my fingers crossed you find a new great job with better working hours! Having a family life while working so many weekend- and nightshifts sure isn´t easy.. And good luck for your exam in autumn!


I have to rant about my health, too.. It´s been three weeks now that all of us take turns with different illnesses - normal flu, gastric flu, and now that it´s over I have a sore throat again and feel so weak that even the tiniest task feels overwhelming.. I´m so sick of being sick! 

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@zatoichi, I know what you are talking about: that's the end of winter...  And where I live there was carnival over the last week, that doesn't exactly help either...

mrshouse - I agree with the others, congrats for making that step! It can be scary, but you know when it's right to do so.

zatoichi - hope you and your family gets better soon, no fun with all that illness. Sometimes it feels like you just can't catch a break.

I knew this Birthday would end like this...

I really wanted to skip it this year... and I wish I had been allowed to.


Firstly I do want to say thank you for all the messages! It means a lot.



I just knew this wasn't going to be a good one for me... one of the most silly reasons is that years and years ago I predicted I would not live to see 25, I turned 25 today.
And I don't like those 'bigger' Birthdays... those markers... 

Ever since I was little I wondered if my absent father would ever return or come by to say hello. Every Birthday I would wonder if some of the presents had been from him... as I got older I always wondered if perhaps my Birthday would be the day my mother at least told me a name or something... maybe even a picture! 
I of course grew wiser, and had he shown up at the restaurant tonight I had probably thrown my drink at him.

As a kid I never knew if I would be allowed to have my Birthday. Sometimes mum decided I hadn't been a good enough child to deserve it. 

Today mum found an old picture album of my childhood. I was flipping through the pages and I just wanted to cry. Seeing that 'happy' little girl in all those staged pictures. 
"Smile, for goodness sake!!!"
Even worse... I know my mum had photographed some of my 'meltdowns' as a result to her abuse. Those pictures were also in that picture album.

Oh, and turning 25 means I am now able to get the cancer screening so I can know if I have the gene that caused the cancer that killed half of my family the past 6 years.


At the restaurant today no one really noticed I was even there, other than when handing me a present. I couldn't even get a word in to say Thank You for that present. 
And most of the talk was about recently passed family members, sick people and stuff I am just sick of dealing with. 

The day started well though, my guy in Holland had sent me a looong email. He had even spent his weekend writing a poem for me. (he is recovering from aphasia so it was a really big thing). we chatted a bit and it was so great. I missed him all weekend and I just missed him a lot. 
He had stomach flu... I ended going into 'Nurse-mode' trying to cure him until I had to leave to go see my family. 

And going back home today, surely carying a bag of presents and a bouquet of gorgeous pink daisies a car almost hit me when I was crossing the street.

I am watching the clock waiting for the last 15 minutes of this day to end.