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This Is The Phantom Lady · January 20, 2015 8:04 pm

My family member finally found peace. I am relieved for her sake.
She was just too young... and everyone thought this was fixable.

I hate this cursed family.

Another funeral to lie my way out of.
I agreed years ago that I was done with funerals... when my mum's cousin died it was a dreadful funeral... rainy, cold and people were so destroyed. After I overheard the widow say that she was so sorry that 'a young girl like her' (meaning me) had to experience so much death already.

That was just too much... she lost her husband and she was worried about me!

batchlock · January 21, 2015 9:51 pm

I'm so sorry for you Phantom! Sending my thoughts to you.

It started snowing yesterday, and I accidentally turned a post on my blog into a phoem, which can also be seen as a rant.

"The snow is falling.
As every other year, a month late.
People are cheering, kids are laughing. They finally get a chance to be outside and have fun.
I feel trapped.
Everything's black.
It's falling down on my clothes and it gets stuck, and when I try to remove it, it only sticks on more.
Onto my clothes, onto my skin.
I can't stop it or prevent it.
I can't protect myself, I'm exposed wherever I am.
I have to let it land on me.
Pull me down.
I knew it after all, it would come sooner or later.

My motivation is gone.
I don't care about anything.
I take every possible way to escape from reality.
Every moment of dream is wonderful.
I used to like school, now I want nothing but to run away from it.
I want to do something else. Something that brings my happiness back.
Because right now I'm standing in the deep wet snow.
And it doesn't matter because how careful I'm trying to be, I will still become wet and cold."

Yup, not really a fan of the snow or winter. I'm just waiting for it to be over.

This Is The Phantom Lady · January 21, 2015 9:51 pm

I feel so alone...

All of my life I've always had to pretend I was strong, mum didn't want to see me cry because it made me look ugly; as she said...

My friends have no idea what my life is like... I'm always the smiling girl who helps them through what ever crisis they are going through... knowing I have to hide my issues because they couldn't handle it on top of some boy ignoring them or what ever.

I've never had someone I could be honest with about what's happening to me. I know I can be honest with my best friend but with her mental illness she has enough on her plate. She is very vulnerable and especially about people she cares for going through bad stuff...

My guy is vulnerable too, but he was helping me... I could tell him everything and it felt amazing.
I know I messed up with my ex 'master' but this weekend he basically told me he couldn't handle hearing about me getting hurt because he cared too much.

And here we go again... my life right now is hell and I can't even tell him... and yet here I am, adding to my own stress worrying and being there for him with his problems.

I hate feeling this lonely

batchlock · January 21, 2015 10:59 pm

I wish I could do something for you Phantom, or at least share my happy feelings with you. No one should feel the way youre doing right now.

batchlock · January 23, 2015 8:45 pm

When I started liking Benedict my friend always told me how old and ugly she thought he was. Everytime I showed her pictures of him or wanted to watch Sherlock she was like "euw".

Today she officially called herself a cumberbitch after watching The Imitation Game. Idk if I'm more proud of me, her or Ben for proving her wrong.

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Zatoichi · January 30, 2015 11:43 pm

I can´t sleep because of a bad cough..

Schmiezi · January 31, 2015 7:30 am

Poor Zatoichi. Hope you get better soon.

mrshouse · January 31, 2015 9:06 am

Get well soon, zatoichi. Lots of drinking and inhaling always works for me.

lil · February 2, 2015 3:01 am

Experiment....alleviating pain through subconscious @ metaphorical screaming........

SO ...Last week...ok maybe idk but on the 26th...I broke my foot at work!
3 toes and a meta catps something bone....lots of plaster and splint...@not enough drugs.
Ok so...yea just a little injury...but OW!
I am not a baby.....I've given birth..with..just gas! I've broken ribs..3 and 2 fractures.....AND been impaled with a kinda spear/ javelin.stabbing injury...I laughed! .also..stitching once in leg x5 no anesthetic.........SO
pain ok...Never even cried for any of those.....I am Brave...I think.

Let me use this rant tho to SCREAM OW! For 5 mins.

Once I read a scientific survey that 'pretend' exercise'....was as good as real exercise.....seriously. ...SO a pretend scream....will vent the pain@induce a loadda natural 'phines' right?
SCREAM, ! Etc...etc....5mins.....feel better...idk.

Contrary to my parters opion...who scarpered after dumping me on the sofa...and the Drs....I am not a whiny baby ! and failing narcotics means.....this needs considerably more wine!
3 weeks immobile....minimum......No.

The silver lining may be this weeks #setlock...and a re watch of some Granada Sherlock....better than
I remember........and the bleh here on the board... (TY ) but........OW! ....and wtf all the accident or injury at work Phone calls I have to hobble to answer.

Metaphorical screaming @ranting.....does it work.....idk.....ask me tommorow. !]

Harriet · February 2, 2015 9:12 am

Offers tea - if you like some

SusiGo · February 2, 2015 9:39 am

Poor lil, hope you will feel soon better. Scream on if it is any help.

Zatoichi · February 2, 2015 9:53 am

Ouch, lil... hope it gets better soon!!

This Is The Phantom Lady · February 2, 2015 4:48 pm

Hope you're better now Zatoichi!

And lil, Ouch!! I hope the foot heals soon!
This morning I heard that they found that in most people yelling actually works to help dealing with the pain... so yell all you can!

This Is The Phantom Lady · February 5, 2015 5:34 pm

I just got a hook-up request in my inbox from a creepy family member! His mother just passed away, and he's back on the booze.

EEEEEW!!

And at the same time he's posting pictures of porn models (not completely naked though) on his facebook page asking people to rate them.

The last one made me laugh... as some woman on his friends list pointed out '0 points, she needs to clean her room!'

nakahara · February 7, 2015 9:46 pm

My toilet broke just before Christmas and I had to have it repaired it after New Year. Twice! I thought that I fullfiled my share of such domestic disasters for this year, but alas! Two days ago, while I was showering, my showerhead broke of in such a manner, that it´s completely useless now... and today, when I wanted to change the light-bulb in my elaborate lamp, I acidentally managed to remove the old light-bulb together with the device into which this thing was screwed into and broke it all off, together with wires...

Am I cursed, or what?

Harriet · February 7, 2015 10:00 pm

An enormous amount of bad luck indeed, nakahara!

This Is The Phantom Lady · February 7, 2015 10:10 pm

Grr, I hate when bad luck seems to follow you like that. Hope karma makes up for it in the end!

nakahara · February 7, 2015 10:23 pm

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This Is The Phantom Lady · February 7, 2015 10:33 pm

In nordic culture we used to believe it was an elf like creature called 'Nissen'... the only way to get out of bad luck like that was to feed him rice porridge as a peace offering.

Not sure what works on Gremlins...

nakahara · February 7, 2015 10:44 pm

I´ll offer him some sweets, will see if it works.

I heard that the best way to get rid of Gremlin is to "borrow" him to some of your neighbours - but I don´t want to subject my poor sweet neighbours to this awful breaking-all-of-your-electrinic-and-mechanical-devices scenario...