Horrible man.

In hindsight I should have hissed at him...

I'm not going to stop spending time with my cats though... I love the weekends I'm at my mother's place and they crawl all over me! 

Great bedside manner he's got! Maybe try wearing gloves when you handle them, that may help a little.

I really don't want to go to work tomorrow... my stomach is in knots... I feel exactly like when I was a kid and had to keep going to school every day despite severe bullying. 

My co-secretary at the hospital has turned out to be a bully, She has been trying to change me for a while now and the last week she snapped. 
She is under a lot of self induced stress (she believes only she can do everything and doesn't want help)... And I've been sick with flu. Like everyone else at the entire hospital... and she has decided to punish me for it. 

She has taken my tasks away from me, with the words "I can't trust you to be here"... and Friday she blew up in my face and literally told me "I can't use you, you aren't worth a thing" and sent me home for still having a cough. 

I was happy to go home to be honest... I know it probably sounds minor but to me it really hurt me. Deep down I know I am an awesome secretary and all my co-workers trust me to do a perfect job and I am able to learn a task in  seconds and remember it months later... 

Monday and Tuesday I was on the cruise and the last two days were her weekly days off. So I've been having fun at work, I do have great co-workers and we always laugh a lot. I actually thought I got over what happened. 

Today I stayed late at work to help one of my co-workers with some stuff, she shared some of her food with me when everyone else had left and she asked me how I was doing, and mentioned she had heard that my co-secretary had been mean to me. 

How the heck does people know about that? It happened in her office and it was only her and me there... 
Has she been talking about me behind my back too? I haven't told a soul about what's been going on. 
At least people are on my side it seems... 

But ugh... It's going to take effort to get out of bed tomorrow and face her again. 

I am 24 years old... I am not the little kid anymore... I even went to therapy to get over the bullying... and now I am going through all those emotions again. 

On Wed. I've been called to a meeting about my sick days and how to make sure I have less in the future... 

I am going to mention what happened with her I think... though I'm not sure how it is going to resolve the issues. 

So far my plan is to try to steer clear of her... which won't work either... 

This was such a cool job, but right now I just want it to be over... by February I no longer work there and will be back on benefits... 

Even worse? from January it's pretty much just her and I on the administrative side as people has either chosen to leave or have been let go due to lack of funding... 

MEN!! *groans*


I work at the hospital, as a secretary and research assistant at the Childhood obesity clinic... and sometimes I get to perform condition tests on the kids which means collecting them after their doctors appointment and taking them to the basement and have them run on a track. 

Today one of the kids had a bit too friendly father... he is there with his wife and daughter. 

He started out shaking mine and my co-workers hands, then he reached for my name tag that I carry on the chest on my nurse uniform; to read my name and title... It was obvious his eyes nor his hands were actually reading the tag. 

He kept flirting and trying to get close to me in the basement too. His wife actually had to walk up next to him and tug his arm angrily. 


I don't know what kind of drama they are going through; but I'd prefer to be left out of it... Not to mention in front of his own daughter! 

 

Last edited by This Is The Phantom Lady (December 9, 2014 10:30 pm)

I don't see a point to reporting him... it will eventually be his word against mine... and quite frankly we are on our hands and knees to please our patients and their family; mainly because we want to help them with their weight loss and pissing them off isn't going to help that... secondly... all that boring stuff with a number of patients needed for certain grants...



Today is just a silly day for me... I got lost in the tunnels under the hospital today. I decided to try to find my way alone to the furthest reaches of those old tunnels... the water pipes were making the weirdest noises... perfect horror material. 
I could have hugged the man who nearly ran me over on his bike... He managed to tell me how to find my way. 

In the tunnel I read an email from my guy who has had a terrible night... and it hurts so much because honestly... it is a pain not being able to physically put my arms around him. Luckily he is getting help... but it just hurts when he's not okay. 

The Hobbit made me cry so much... and when I part with my friends to go home... going through a shut down but Christmas lit shopping street I decide to read his last email of the day... a long one... of course as always saying he is happy to have me... but telling me exactly how hard his night had been and there I was crying... hoping no one saw...

I come home and have time to read the email from my GP, the test results from the tests they did on Monday were in... apparently I lack Folic acid, and will need further tests... 
As always, and as someone who works in healthcare I decided to read up on it and it hasn't calmed me... 
It is commonly seen in alcoholics, old people, anorexic, people with bowel conditions or cancer...
I don't fit the first 3... most of my family has died from bowel cancer... I am supposed to get checked after my Birthday... 

I know I am overreacting and I broke rule one... never google your symptoms (To be fair, I 'googled' actual medical texts for healthcare professionals)

 

But if you tend to panic and become slightly hypochondriac it's better not to..  I stopped doing it too, after I spent sleepless nights worrying about the worst things just because of simple symptoms like stomach aches..

Phantom, women often haven't enough folic acid, that's something I learned before getting pregnant.. They give supplements to almost every woman in order to reach a level that won't endanger the child's health. So low folic acid really isn't something you need to worry too much about..

Yeah I am aware of that...

But I've been very anemic for months and months... I have almost no strength, I get dizzy, dazed and confused and there are other symptoms too. Doing Pilates I have often felt like something inside my stomach was stopping me from getting into certain positions... my severe back pain, which hasn't been diagnosed after a year could also be a symptom

I do not like this... My mother has the cancer gene, my grandfather's brother was the first of my family to die from it... and possibly it's what has caused no woman in my family to make it past 70 in the history. 

Yup... I am really thinking too much into this... Hopefully it is just something I can fix with a tablet... I am seeing ghosts... 

I won't bother my family with it though, they have quite enough... 

 

OMG I would make a terrible teacher...
That actually hurts to attempt to read. Sorry