Not only has it been more than a week since I heard from the idiot who was ruining my life making me do things... I've met someone!

It's only an online relationship but OMG. He's the kindest thing ever, sweet, and it feels so good to be emailing with him. I can spend an entire day having strange conversations... GAH I'm so in love... Even my co-workers (who didn't know what was going on in my life before) have noticed I have a smile on my lips that seem a lot more genuine... The other day he sent me a picture of a post-it note he wrote for me and it made me so happy I could have cried.

I have no idea if this is going to last... but for now it just feels so good and healthy. It's healing me slowly and best of all; I feel like a human being again! 

Thank you! I'm so happy with him... Gosh. I am trying so hard not to get too much in love already; like you adviced me I do want to be smart. But this is just what I needed. 



I don't know if this classifies as a 'Good news' post... but it made me giggle none the less.

When walking home from the train station; wearing my grey trench coat with blue leopard print and my big Hello kitty bag a group of young lads were walking behind me. 
You know the type... about 16 years old; caps on their heads thinking they own the world... they started meowing at me and my only reaction was a big grin on my face as I walked on. 

I so badly wanted to turn around and thank them for the effort. But tell them that sadly I didn't speak douchebag... 

Usually it really bothers me when people make fun of me or what I wear... but I really like my coat and my bag... my nicknames are Kitten and Kitty for a reason. 

I am so in love. I can't say that enough... wow

Last night I had to send a heartbreaking email. I had been keeping a few things from my guy (oh the joys and the drama of dating online). I Knew he was probably going to leave me when I told him the truth. I was crying my eyes out when I wrote it... but I had to tell him. 
He was hurt, obviously... but he allowed me to explain why I hadn't been completely honest and he even forgave me... He even said he likes the real me more. *holds chest so her heart won't jump out of her chest*.

I've officially stopped as an unemployed secretary at the hospital too... I am now getting paid a very low pay; with half of it being paid from the jobcenter! Now I can finally save up for my trip to London next August... and who knows... maybe even a little trip to Holland to see my guy some day. 

I had a lovely day last Sunday at the Sherlock event. Yay! I want to do the Sherlock boogie again!

nakahara wrote:

Bronte89 wrote:

I had a lovely day last Sunday at the Sherlock event. Yay! I want to do the Sherlock boogie again!

Oh, I envy you so much - it sounds exciting!
 

 
It was great! I felt very hot in my coat as the sun was out. My mum made me a sign that said, '221B The Game Is On!' which we put on the back of my wheelchair. My mum wrote the sign on black paper with a sliver pen, the sign is fab. I'd love to go to another Sherlock event one day!

This Is The Phantom Lady wrote:

Sounds like you had an awesome time, Bronte! Good to hear!



I just had an online 'date' with my guy... we spent 5 hours just talking about so many things... like we had known each other for years! This is so right! 

And he told me this song reminded him of me... Gah. I'm in love and I can't help myself...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pnTM44VEE80

 
Yes, it was a great day thanks. I'm glad you had a nice time with your boyfriend.

I had been very, very nervous about my first PhysioPilates class... 

My sociophobia is slowly getting better, lately it's gotten a lot better actually. My confidence is being built.
But the thought of exercising in front of other people scared me so much. Gym class in school was my own personal hell. It got so bad my doctor actually had to write a note to my teachers about why I should be allowed to leave class because of my mental state...

But this class was a lot cheaper than physiotherapy which is what I actually need... 

I had an amazing experience, everyone there all had back issues and everyone were twice my age. After we sat in a circle and explained what issues we had there was just an air of 'its okay'. And no one expected anything of anyone. 

I have already learned a lot about my body, It felt like I was doing something very good for myself both physically and mentally. so Yay!

Okay it didn't end too good... the last exercise sent me into heavy cramps so much so the entire class were concerned... the teacher is a physiotherapist so she managed to calm me down thank goodness...
So after we sat in the same circle we started in and she told everyone it was okay to be sore tomorrow, it was a good sign. She then looks at me and informs me I will be in a lot of pain tomorrow... Gee thank you!

But I can't wait for next tuesday! I know this is going to help me so much, it's going to build the exact muscles I need to build! 

Work has been a nightmare since I returned from being away with flu. I was so stressed... as soon as I stepped in there I felt calm and didn't think about work for once... Fantastic! 

 

If I felt more comfortable with my body I really would love to take up swimming again... it would do wonders for my body I know! I know it's stupid... but I'd rather be in a world of pain for the rest of my life than people seeing me in a bathing suit. 



I've come home from a party tonight, it was such a fun time... a shame I had to leave early though.
But I've found out who I am at parties... I am the one who comes with random information about stuff... like when Whiskey is called Whiskey and when it's Scotch... Just to hear an entire room full of lovely geeks laugh and say "NERD!!".

Oh, and I just finished shopping for a gorgeous Halloween costume... Zombie Sherlock!! I even found the perfect Purple Shirt of Sex!!

Last edited by This Is The Phantom Lady (October 5, 2014 12:07 am)

Me too, I have a fine geek test result ("total geek", not too bad) 

Geeks always have the best parties, I can certainly confirm that! 

Have fun at your party Davina, your costume sounds so cool!




I am just so happy, generally happy... 
My guy (although he is still working on committing) is just such a good man. This weekend I was a bit anxious about going to be with my mother. Last time we were together we had some fights and she complained that I was breathing. 
He completely took away my anxiety. He told me to imagine his hands on my shoulders; him being there for me. Giving me strength to handle it all. It worked. And I had a good time there.

And Friday night he sent me a really long email about his feelings... I cried the happiest tears when he told me he really liked being able to be there for me. 

My job at the hospital pays so well, I am able to go shopping and not worry about how to stretch £10 for a whole month... I can buy food in the canteen for lunch so I won't have to pack lunch which hurts my back so much. 
And I never have to choose between pain relief or food... 

I have so much more 'time' for my best friend, we hang out so much and I feel able to make plans... Before I did have the time, but I didn't have the energy to take the time... for most of this year I have been pretty awol from the real life.

My pains are still getting worse... but I am living with that. I am getting used to it I suppose... and my doctor is slowly opening up to wanting to help me. When I have taken 8 PhysioPilates classes he is going to refer me to a real specialist in December. 8 months since the pains started...