I had the oddest dream last night. First I dreamt I was cast as an extra in a movie with Ben. It was shot in a real pub and I was just in the background when he was in the scene.
After shooting was over for the day, my boyfriend and I had a few beers with Martin at that pub (yes, suddenly he was there too). We all chatted a bit, and then suddenly Martin says to me: "I need to talk to you about something", and he sounded a bit serious. My boyfriend was nodding as if he suspected what this was about, and I dreaded that my crush on Ben would show on-screen during the scenes we had done. Just before that, I had actually received a text from Ben, saying he wanted to talk to me, and that it "wouldn't be horrible, but bearable", or something like that.
But Martin took me to... his office or something. He showed me the daily shots from the Sherlock Special, where I also was an extra, it seemed. And in that scene, where the street was filmed from above, like on a high crane, we could clearly see my wandering around like a tourist, mouth gaping and wide-eyed, taking in the set and the scenery. Completely breaking the immersion of the scene.
The weird part is that in the dream, I remember that happening. And I remember not having been cast as an extra and not even knowing it was a set, I was just going "Wow, what's this?" as I had wandered in there by accident. But that made no sense, I see now in hindsight, because in the scene I was dressed in Victorian costume, with my hair and make-up done professionally. One of those strange dream thingies, I guess.
Anyway, Martin was gracious about it, but stated rather firmly that they had so-and-so many people waiting in line to be extras on this show and they had worked 1,5 years for this, so they would have to let me go.
I was devastated, and highly embarrased. I didn't argue or cry, feeling that would only make it worse. So I just left. When I got out on the street, I remembered the text from Ben and that I should probably reply to him. I just stood there for a second, savouring the moment where I was in a situation that I actually ought to text Ben.
I planned on writing him something like: "Martin just told me. He was gracious about it. I am sorry about the whole thing, never meant to ruin the filming. I wish you all the best with Sophie and your child".
But at that time, the alarm went off and I woke up. I actually felt relieved that it was just a dream. Even though I had met them, it was horrible to embarrase myself like that in front of them. Still feeling a bit weird and uncomfortable, like a dream hangover.