tobeornot221b wrote:
Having rewatched Reichenbach several times now (you really don't want to know how many times exactly!
) the hardest thing to bear is that I feel so sorry for John.
In addition to his grief about the loss of his best friend there has to be some sort of feeling of guilt.
Remember that his last words to Sherlock in the lab before leaving for Mrs. Hudson were:
"Friends protect people."
Due to the imminent events the worst thing he could possibly have said.
He must ask himself after the fall: "If I had been there – could I possibly have saved Sherlock like I did the other day?"
In his context I understand his "I'm angry." at the cemetery.
Yes, it's not in the sense Mrs Hudson explained HER being angry with Sherlock (though her complaints about Sherlock's bad manners like the marks-on-the-table thing certainly are her way to come to terms with her grief, I think!). John's angry because Sherlock left him no chance to save him.
Grief plus feelings of guilt: The worst combination. Poor John. I so feel for him.
(Even worse: All that will turn out in the end as having been totally unnecessary…)
I find your thoughts here very interesting. I have watched my favorite parts of TRF about 15 times, no lie, and I've watched the entire episode through about 5. I just ordered the DVDs-- decided to stop fooling around, pay the 40ish bucks for the two seasons from amazon, and just do it, lol.
Yes, John. God love him. What a mess. And IMO Sherlock knew what he was doing to him, and felt it had to be done. Standing up on the roof edge, tears streaming and dripping, face twisted up, "I'm a fake. Tell everyone who will listen...." Poor John couldn't say much besides, "No!" and, "What?" So helpless. And then the final, "SHERLOCK!", watching his friend fall to his death right before his helpless eyes. Terrible. The writer(s) of the show couldn't have dragged the fans over the coals any more thoroughly, could they.
If John thinks he's "angry" about Sherlock doing what he did, wait'll he looks up one day and the man is standing in front of him! Whoa, mama.... I don't know what the writers have planned for them, but I know John is one tough son of a bitch (they both are), and I don't think it's going to be pretty. Or easy. And why should it be? Look what that f-ing Moriarty forced Sherlock to do, to both of them!
John is going through hell, and he's lonely and pissed off and feeling helpless (men hate feeling helpless, even on a good day). I hope he's not feeling guilty-- I mean, what the hell could he have done to change anything? He knows Sherlock is his own man, his own country, and Sherlock will do (and say and be) what Sherlock will do (and say and be), no matter what. He is what he is, and as he said, "I can't just turn it on and off like a tap, you know." Sherlock sent John away that day, needed him to be busy and distracted and somewhere else while he did what he had to, and John couldn't have known what was going down-- nothing to feel guilty about. I do realize that guilt can be an irrational emotion, not based on truth or actual events, but even still-- what could he have done, when Sherlock didn't want him there?
<<<Grief plus feelings of guilt: The worst combination>>> Especially mixed with regret. Awful.
Lord, I love this episode. So much hurt.... but I'm gobsmacked that we have to wait another year for the comfort we (and John and Sherlock and Mrs. Hudson and Lestrade and Molly) need so bad.